in between some quite uneventful things happened which kept me a bit occupied...
My granma suffered a massive stroke brain hemorrhage in later part of feb....it came to us a bolt from the blue. Never in my thoughts i have felt that s'thin of this sort can happen with us. She was admitted in hospital for about 15 days and has her right side fully paralysed.
She has been the nicest human being i've ever come across. Never said ill of any body, spent the maximum part of day in praying to her goapal jee. Very softspoken kind hearted. Then why why on this earth destiny was so cruel to her.
This incident has made me think a lot about life...i mean...u never now what will happen in the next moment. There she was on the fateful day having tea at about 5:00 in the morning and then it all started..the cup fell from her hands..her right part started becoming motionless and by the time she was rushed to hospital a lot of damage has been done.. was treated by some of the best neurophysicians at agra..Apollo nd sir gangaram doctors were also consulted but all in vain..
I feel like that all this was anlogous to the movie city of angels in which the doctor feels that she can't do anything to save a patient. Its all destiny that plays its part and she's just a medium for that. If a patient has to go it will no matter how hard u try..Same was the case here...the doctors couldn't do much. Just stabilized her position but the damage that has been done can't be reverted..
Now for a few days all this made me think a lot. Such a devout person had to undergo such pain and suffering, made me think why it happened, why god had to do this..
But i think slowly i have started finding answers:- what ever will happen will surely happen. Prayin to god will just give u courage and strength to face difficulties. People say that whatever we get is the result of our deeds in past births...but i don't know whether to believe it or not. Afterall nobody knows his past life.
I think that if something is bound to happen, it will happen, whatever may be the cause; whether u call it result of your deeds in previous birth or just keep it simple that it was meant to be like this only. But praying to god will keep ur hopes alive, u won't get tired by struggling, you will start finding ways to cope up with everythin, above all you won't lose faith.
I felt it myself. The past few months were extremely tough for us. Besides my granma's illness there were a lot of other issues which by themselves could have a lot of adverse effect on our lives. But it was all god's grace that we could keep our cool in these adverse circumstances and come out unscathed . So maybe it was all meant to be a learning for us. In between i have read the complete bhagvada geeta to my grandma. It has been a completely sublime experience for me. Though couldn't get it completely but was still very satisfying. If u are reading this blog and haven't read the bhagvad geeta then just give it a try.
Even now my granma is bed ridden. The various pipes and monitoring instruments have been removed but still she can't stand without support. We all are trying our best and one day m sure she was start walking as before. Afterall she means a lot to me.
This makes me remember a poem..i dunno the poet but here it goes:-
I asked for Strength.........
And God gave me Difficulties to make strong.
I asked for Wisdom.........
And God gave me Problems to solve.
I asked for Prosperity.........
And God gave me Brain and Brawn to work.
I asked for Courage.........
And God gave me Danger to overcome.
I asked for Love.........
And God gave me Troubled people to help.
I asked for Favours.........
And God gave me Opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted
I received everything I needed
My Prayer has been answered
